Waking up so lonely!

    What is happening with me? Is this normal. The more I try not to feel lonely, the more I get so lonely. I love being alone at times because I get to think a lot of things but if being alone for a long time, it is really hard to deal with it. My past just keeps coming back and that I don't know if I can still handle this situation. I don't know what tomorrow has for me, all I know now is that I am lonely. I want to do something but I can't do it, my life is so limited here that I can't do the things that I used to do.. I am here at a far land away from where I am used to and everyday my mind is there in the Philippines. How long can I endure this loneliness I have in me right now. Do I have to experience this so that one day I can say I am happy and fulfilled with my life?