Waking up so lonely!
August 26, 2007What is happening with me? Is this normal. The more I try not to feel lonely, the more I get so lonely. I love being alone at times because I get to think a lot of things but if being alone for a long time, it is really hard to deal with it. My past just keeps coming back and that I don't know if I can still handle this situation. I don't know what tomorrow has for me, all I know now is that I am lonely. I want to do something but I can't do it, my life is so limited here that I can't do the things that I used to do.. I am here at a far land away from where I am used to and everyday my mind is there in the Philippines. How long can I endure this loneliness I have in me right now. Do I have to experience this so that one day I can say I am happy and fulfilled with my life?
Remembering my past!
August 25, 2007At this part of my life where I feel that I have no one except my mother and Uncle John, I feel that I am very alone. Someone who don't even have a friend to share all the good things that I have now. I am in a very beautiful and wonderful country. With so many fantastic and amazing views but it seems like for me it is useless because I don't get to enjoy them. Everytime I see those places, I wished that someone is here beside me to enjoy the place. I can say that I have a great past. With all the people around me who have been part of it, then what else I can asked for. Those were the times when I have felt the happiest time of my life. Those days when I will just sit in the field, watching the sun to set and thinking the good times. The days when I used to play in the rain, running around the field. How I wish I can do that one right now. Being away from all my loved ones back in the Philippines makes me realize how important they are to me. I do really miss everyone there. i used to go to school and do some funny things with classmates and friends. The time when I used to miss school because I just don't feel like going to school. The time when I am always late. Now, I can't do that anymore. Those days when I used to play scrabble with my playmates in scrabble. I miss the rain also, the strong typhoons and everything. I miss riding on a jeepney and tricycle. I miss eating in Jollibee alone. I miss walking in Session Road and SM. Now that I don't even have a single friend makes me wonder if I can survive it here. Life is too short for me to forever live a life like this.
Another Day Has Just Passed Away
August 24, 2007Today is friday again and I get paid everyday Friday. It's like I am happy to have money, to have something that I can hardly have when I was in the Philippines, but now I am earning so much. I just feel that I am too young for this one, but I thank the Lord for giving me all of this. I have two jobs, babysitting and housekeeping job in Radisson hotel. My babysitting job is not that hard, it is not that tiring unlike in the housekeeping that it is too physical. I don't really know if I really feel tired doing these jobs, maybe I am enjoying it already that's why for me I am not working. As the saying say, enjoy your work and you don't have to work for the rest of your life. I really don't know.
Someone that makes me happy!
August 17, 2007Life is really full of surprises. We don't know what it has store for us, things just keep coming and it's up for us to grab each moment that comes along. Just like a while ago, who would ever know that my crush will be bring me to the station. Unexpected circumstance, something that will make me happy for a moment. If I can only hold on to that moment then it should have been better. But I can't do nothing, time flies so fast when you are happy. All that I have now is that memory that once in a while, in my lonely life here, there's this person who made me smile. I don't know what will this one bring me, happiness or loneliness? All I can feel now is that I am happy.
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